First off, congrats on 80 days sober. How can you not be overjoyed about that? Have you forgotten how long you struggled to just get a couple days? A week?
That being said, I agree with Dee:
Originally Posted by
Dee74 
By holding on to somethings you can never fix, and endlessly beating yourself up, you may be creating near perfect conditions to drink again.
My sister is a nurse and worked for a long time with terminally ill cancer patients. She told me most people on their death bed have made peace with the things they've done. If they have regrets, it's for the things they haven't done.
Make peace with what you've done. Don't be on your deathbed wishing you hadn't wasted the blessings of sobriety reliving the misery of the past. A past you only change by not repeating it.