I have to take this class because it is a requirement for my degree. It only lasts three weeks but it is three hours a day of class five days a week. I just need to study and forget about everything else. I am in grad school and I have quit smoking and drinking. I have also been drinking only water and eating fish and fruits and vegetables. I dont know. A five year relationship also abruptly ended, I kind of feel abandoned because we lived together for four years and I have been in my own place for almost a year. Everything is horrible today for some reason and I cannot figure out why. Something deep inside tells me I am going to be alone forever now and no one will like me. Thinking this way is pathetic.