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Old 06-10-2013, 08:10 AM
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Originally Posted by Crossfitdad View Post
I'm still on the fence on my issue...I still don't know whether I am an alcoholic, a problem drinker or just a drunk. I've kind of decided that it really doesn't matter. What I call myself or some other "addiction specialist" calls me doesn't change the fact that I was putting my daughters to sleep with beer on my breath and buzzed, I would wake up most mornings feeling like absolute crap and anxious until 1 or 2 o'clock. Then 4:30 would roll around and I'd start thinking about beer..I'd remind myself that I promised no drinking tonight...and then rationalize it until I was cracking open that first beer. Rinse and repeat.

I have only been sober for 6 going on 7 days, so I am by no means a pro or vindicated. Looking back a few weeks, I think the answer to me is that if I didn't have a problem, I wouldn't have wasted my time by posting on a recovery website. You need to ask yourself why you are here.

I wish you the best of luck.
I think I MAY have stopped short of that line. If so then it should just be a little easier.
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