Originally Posted by
zany90 
i dont like sitting thinking about, talking about or being in any way associated with anything to do with alcoholism, sobriety, alcohol, or anything in that area.
Then you've picked an odd website to strike up a conversation, friend.
You might want to consider Rational Recovery/AVRT. It was started by someone who didn't find help at AA, so he reasoned out another way to go. There's some good tools there that might interest you.
Best of Luck on your journey.