I've used people and sex to try and change how i felt about myself just like i did with drugs and alcohol . It worked about as well as the drugs and alcohol (it just made me feel worse in the long run) .
People i find attractive as friends and lovers have an inner confidence, are content and happy so those are the parts of my charecter i work on if i want to be attractive .
Now that you've got sobriety (congratulations on the 4 months) what are you going to make of yourself ?
Bestwishes, M