Day one.....again
Thanks to all for the welcome and words of encouragement.
I'm sober today. Maybe more like dry.
For the moment I simply have to accept that it's enough.
The obstacle that looms largest before me is my own ego.
I must return to AA. I know this on a cognitive, matter of fact level.
What stops me is my own thoughts. I've heard this all before....the steps....the stories....traditions.....suggestions. I've heard it all.
Hard to have a newcomers mind when it's clouded by delusions of what I think I know. Obviously' having back out there for some time now - what I know is meaningless.
Knowing this does not stop me from thinking AA doesn't work. I KNOW it works. Just doubting it can still work for ME.
thanks again everyone.