((((((((((((Lillamy))))))
I'm a little late in chiming in here. I admire your recovery so much...you have always been such a source of inspiration and hope for me. I know your recovery is strong and I know you will take whatever lesson you need to take from this situation and use it to make you stronger. Somewhere under the pile of emotions, there is a recovery tool or lesson to be mined and polished and saved for future reference. But all of that can be done later. For now, just revert back to the basics of self-care and nurture yourself. You are a rock star. You are! Your children are so blessed to have you and you to have them. Nothing else really matters in the big scheme of things.
Huge hugs and encouragement and support...
Mary