You have such a gift in writing! Thanks from me too for your so accurately capturing and describing the cycle.
I too was down a little tonight, saying out loud I wish I could drink wine tonight. I'm 3.5 months sober! I couldn't believe myself. I told my AV to get lost and enjoyed the rest of the night.
Your post so accurately described my previous struggle. Thank you!
And.........welcome back! Join in. We are here for you and congrats!