The Higher Power concept seems to be wide open, from what I understand. It can range from Jehovah God to "Group Of Drunks" or "Good Orderly Direction"... personally, I tend to think of it in quantum physics or particle theory terminology. That's on a good day, lol. Otherwise, I identify as agnostic... but this doesn't prevent me from retaining an open mind spiritually. Hang in there. Your reality is what matters.