Boon-I am sorry for your loss as well. Yes, it does take it's toll......Especially when he blamed me for so much. He left with the attitude that he had new found self esteem and happiness and I was the one dragging him down. I was the one who always encouraged him to be healthy! Even his parents thanked me for that.....Luckily, I found out he was drinking as much as ever or I would have been left with the impression that I was sucking the life out of him.