I do suffer from depression But I don't respond well to ssri meds like lexapro. I'm on 60mg of adderall a day and that helps. But always end the day stressed out and feeling crappy, Since I've quit drinking I've taken up nicotine Like everyone else that goes to rehab..... I figure I have a better chance of not dying starting smoking at 43 rather than age 15..... But I'll quit that too eventually