jazzfish

I am finding myself in a very sticky place. I have made some major mistakes in my life as a direct result of my past drinking. There is a lot of lingering guilt and shame about this. It makes me feel stupid, useless, inadequate...and a flurry of other non-supportive feelings. To a degree, these are deserved because it was my choices and actions that brought about the consequences. However, the discomfort these feelings cause drives me to want to drink.

I can see that this is simply my default reaction to stress and problems in my life. It is how I reacted for decades. However, it will not make any of the problems better or avoid creating more problems to add to the pile.

I would be very interested in how I can deal with these feeling while being sober. It just seems so overwhelming. I hope this makes some sense.