Great insights from everyone so much appreciated... I realize even if I do have one or two I'm going to go back and do it again tomorrow because I'm not gonna feel any better tomorrow. I'm going to drink every day because that's what I do I drink every day. Slip will become a relapse. Two will likely Turn into 10. I just ended a 10 year relationship and I don't even want to think about dating again. I can't imagine dating without having wine at dinner. How is that even possible? If I slip or relapse that's when it's going to happen.