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Old 06-05-2013, 11:11 PM
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Grungehead
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Originally Posted by daddoo View Post
I've enjoyed reading your posts everyone. I'm almost six weeks sober. Went to Hawaii for a week with my daughter and didnt have one drink. I'm back one day and I really want to go next door to the pub for a pint of Guinness. Still feel mentally like ****. Don't like the shame associated with this either. It's a constant fight. Worst when I'm alone. Thanks for your encouraging stories. I just can't see making it with a slip or relapse whatever you want to call it. Kind of want to get it over with. That's where I'm at pretty much every day. Can't say I feel any pride for the six weeks either. Depressing.
You make it sound like a relapse is part of the program. Just remember that there are no guarantees that you make it back from a relapse, but slips are optional, they are not a mandatory part of the program. I had one that lasted 8 years and I'm damn luck I made it back. Think about that before you pick up that first drink.
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