I've enjoyed reading your posts everyone. I'm almost six weeks sober. Went to Hawaii for a week with my daughter and didnt have one drink. I'm back one day and I really want to go next door to the pub for a pint of Guinness. Still feel mentally like ****. Don't like the shame associated with this either. It's a constant fight. Worst when I'm alone. Thanks for your encouraging stories. I just can't see making it with a slip or relapse whatever you want to call it. Kind of want to get it over with. That's where I'm at pretty much every day. Can't say I feel any pride for the six weeks either. Depressing.