I was able to join the meeting for a bit once I figured out how to get there! Thanks for the invite. Feeling better tonight. I have some damage to undo with my family though. I'm feeling so much guilt and shame for what I've put them through. They don't deserve any of this. I'm trying to use this feeling that I've felt all day to never repeat this again. I've got lots of reading to do in my RR book, also picked up Allen Carr's the easy way to stop drinking (thoughts on the latter book?) as well as the Power of Habit. Thanks all for the hand holding and kind words today. Night's are the worst for me, so I'll be spending a lot of time on SR from here on out.