I have felt like too at times Briar. It's my disease trying to talk me into drinking. First, the good sober people in my life start annoying me (I make up reasons) then I sit in meetings thinking "yeh yeh that's bs". Then I want to isolate. For this alcoholic I know that's when I need to reach out the most. Stick it out, it will pass eventually. I never regret NOT drinking. But if I do pick up, I'll just start self-loathing and Lord knows what else. The fact that you are reaching out on here speaks volumes. Sounds like you want to stay sober more than you want to drink and that's a good day in my book
