Originally Posted by
LoveMeNow 
The truth is that lately when I read about somebody leaving their relationship, I feel envious. I think yes, they are free, free of the insanity of addiction....which includes recovery efforts.
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The expression "Cry now for losing him or cry later because you stayed" still haunts me!!
The quote was the catalyst for me finally being able to leave.
"The pain you will feel if you stay will overshadow and be worse than the pain if you were to go."
One of my good friends did a tarot reading for me when things started to really hit the fan, and she was right. I had suffered so much- how much more could my body physically withstand? The pain of leaving would be fast and quick like a paper cut- but if I stayed it'd be like being dismembered without anesthesia.
You're a brave woman for standing by your husband through this time- and I admire you so much. I could feel myself breaking down like a beat up old car! Yes, I ran, but I don't ever want to look back; I'd have let myself down.
Focus on you, no matter what.