I'll echo what's been said: Just for today, don't drink. A sure sign of relapse is being sure you're "cured" or that you are good to go for any amount of time. We do this with a Power that is not our own, 24 hours at a time. AA works...IF you work AA. For you that means go to that meeting and get a sponsor. When you find someone willing to sponsor you you're well on your way to a good, sober day today
Hang in there - it gets harder but better too
The fact that you know you have a problem is going to really help you. That's a big one... Oh, and do it for you
God bless...