Hi James,
You sound like you are getting your thinking together. James believe me if you keep doing what you are doing the fears will leave you and the promises become a realization.
I am very broke at the moment and previously this would send me into a head spin of anxiety and fear of the future but the miracle is I am really not worried. God always gives me what I need, not necessarily what I want
Now I just do what needs to be done and leave the outcome up to God and as Veritas so wisely said, my happiness is not based on what I have or where I live but what is going on inside of my head and how close my relationship is with God.
Good luck with the apartment hunting I am sure you will be fine.
Love
CaiHong