I'm really glad I found you too!!!! I'm feeling a bit better, day by day. I am trying to take care of myself as best I can. I will stress to everyone in similar circumstances, as hard as it is, the 'no contact' rule is the best way of helping yourself, and to concentrate just on the facts. Every time I start going down that road of what-ifs, I just think of the track record so far. Really helps my mental outlook. No talk: let's see the proof.