Springs,
I think you have already done a great job of taking care of you.
Going to Al Anon and talking to friends and family is the healthiest thing you can do for you.
Oh, I just re read your post and this is your husband.
Are you newly married?
I will go back and read your other posts, in the meantime, I just want to say I am sorry.
I know this is painful and sorrowful.
There is a grief process to go through.
You can do it, you have a great start already.
This is a wonderful place to come and vent about problems,
and to just complain sometimes.
We listen, we care. We always want to help.
Beth