because I hit the erase button often.
Mizz,
If it makes you feel any better I do that a lot too.
What I see here in this thread are positives.
You didn't drink over your feelings.
You recognized a pattern in your past that led to relapse and acknowledged it.
You reached out for help here.
You showed a willingness to reach out for outside help.
Shall I go on?
Some days just plain suck. It seems everyone and everything all piles on us at the same time. That's when getting through the day without drinking is awesome, because it allows us to have a chance at a better day tomorrow.