What I know for certain is that I will not drink over this. I think this sort of thing helped me to drink again last time. I am coming up on 3 months again, and I see a pattern. This time around I am not doing anything that will be detrimental to my life. The underlying issues need to be addressed. There is no reason for this to continue... I have to be able to talk this through with someone. So, a professional will be called here shortly. Not my first rodeo in this arena. My anxiety gets the best of me.