Thinking Im out of place
Im feeling out of place. I feel it here, and at home. In the town I live. I am afraid that something awful is going to happen, and my life will be destroyed. I have the circle of my last episode of drinking running through my head on repeat. I feel sorry about everything, and I am worried about myself and just about anything you can think of.
This sucks. I hate this feeling and I just realized that this type of thinking is abnormal. I know it will pass. I guess I just need someone to tell me that i am doing alright, and that I am not out of place. Like being here on the forum. My sense of belonging has always been screwed up.
Thank you and sorry for the low self esteem (if that is what it is called) Yuck! Okay....This looks pitiful. I am going to post it anyways....because I hit the erase button often.