I'm not sure of my counsellor's background, it seemed impolite to ask ( silly I know). She was the one assigned to me when I called our provincial health care mental health intake office. I simply cannot afford another counsellor at this time.
AH also sees a separate counsellor once every three weeks. I'm not sure why not more, but I do know she is very booked up. This is also funded by my provincial health care tax dollars.
It feels so alien to me to even try to think this way. Mixed into all of this is my idea of moral obligations (if you see someone suffering do you allow them to continue to suffer or do you take their hand and help them) and my wedding vows, for better or for worse. It confuses the carp out of me! What is being selfish and what is taking care of myself and kids? What is allowing "natural consequences" and what is turning my back on someone who obviously needs help?
My religious upbringing isn't helping things either it seems.
Does any of this make sense? I feel like I'm crazy.