Thanks to all for your responses.
Last night was rough. I was very hung over. I looked and felt terrible. I'm afraid to look in the mirror now.
And now that I'm feeling a bit better physically, I am now going through the guilt and shame part of the ride. It's difficult to face myself. This is when drinking again sounds like a good idea. The physical effects are nothing compared to the mental effects from drinking. Every time I fail and drink, I have less and less faith in myself and feel more and more ashamed and hopeless. Alcoholism has made me dislike myself.
I have to find a way to be proud of myself again.