Hi. I also had a lot of difficulty stopping when I went to AA for two years. I went to meetings but rationalized reasons to drink and was told that I wanted to drink more than I wanted to get sober. Looking back this was so true. Fortunately I continued going to meetings and heard things that I needed to and finally put the plug in the jug. One of the things I needed to repeat to myself that made sense: If I don't pick up the first drink I don't have to get sober again. That's a fact. BE WELL