Hello
I am starting the journey again today. I got sober at the beginning of the year, but gradually, I found myself drinking too much again. I don't drink every day like I once did, but I started to essentially reserve Saturday night and Sunday for drinking. With the holiday weekend, I extended my binge another day. Mid binge, I stopped to ask myself why I thought being drunk was good or fun? I asked myself if I was happier or felt like i had had fewer problems because I was drinking. Obviously, the anger and sadness was still there and drinking did not help.
The problem was that while I was not drinking, I didn't resolve what made me drink to begin with. I don't know that I ever will, but I know drinking doesn't solve anything. In fact, it just gives me one more thing to worry about.
I want to thank you all on this board in advance. It helps to read your stories. They make me feel less alone.