Soberme I think you’re doing exactly what you need to do at this point.
1 You’re slammin on the breaks to your drinking before it gets real bad.
2 You’re reaching out to get input from others rather than isolating as you have been doing.
3 You sound to me like you are being honest (with yourself and others).
That’s really a great start. Just one suggestion from me. Try to find some face to face support ASAP. I have a feeling it may be hard for you to seek out but that it will turn be really good for you in the long run. All the best to you going forward.