Another day another thought...
What are you afraid of?
What are you afraid will happen if you just sit with yourself. Your thoughts. Be still. And listen?
I am afraid the lid on the pressure cooker of trauma that remains from my marriage to and relationship with an A will start hissing. bubbling. I'm afraid if I don't keep it on tight I won't be able to control what demons come out, how many, and at which pace.
If I keep myself either busy or exhausted I have an excuse to not deal with any of it. The past can remain there in the way back of the closet and if I ignore it enough, maybe it will go away?
That may feel like chickening out and avoiding recovery and healing. But there are times when it is completely OK to make that choice. Because taking a breather doesn't mean you don't continue forward when you've gathered the strength to do so.