you want to be special and not like others, and yet complain that you feel lost, alone and rejected.
Ah yes, anvilhead. This is it for me exactly. No one understood me, because no one knew me, no one knew me, because I did not allow it. That left me pretty much alone in my "specialness" or a better term, terminal uniqueness.
I do not want to feel lost alone and rejected anymore. So, I do not drink, I allow people to see the real me, and I am keeping a safe distance from men who are either addicted or unavailable in some other way.
This is one place I do not feel those feelings, I feel I belong here.
I also belong at meetings. Those are my people.
There comes a time when lost, alone and rejected is not enough.
I hope it comes for you soon AnonK.
Beth