The addict I CHOSE to interact with did not choose life.
That was her choice---and quite honestly......none of my business.
The call of Pandora's box was too strong. Although every freshly
hatched little little turtle frantically rushing to the waters edge
thinks that THEY won't be a part of an attrition statistic---the
mathematical reality is not all of them will make it.
For me to try to coerce her back 'to life' would have been wrong.
I spent many a month trying to figure out a way I could ethically do
it-----but either there WAS no way, or I was not smart enough to
think of one.
She pushed the limits of the abyss---and finally the abyss pushed
back. I wasn't trying to be a light in the darkness, just a person
sitting on the curb with a Bic lighter saying "please don't do this".
Her life, in the end, was her business. Between her and God. All we
need to believe is that our prayers are heard----even if the answer is
no.