no. it doesn't. There was a time I booted my "brother" for heroin use in my home. Before that I booted my brother by blood for driving drunk...
where in the world did I begin to compromise?
also... ok... this is a sick codependent thought but I want to voice it.
won't he resent me MORE if I allow this? in the event that he ever does get clean?
who am I afraid of losing more? Mr. Hyde???? really??? wouldn't Jeckle Hate me if I cheated on him with Hyde?
Then back to me...
why in the world he still in my mind?
I need to do the steps all over again.
deeply.
I know that I am powerless over his decisions. I haven't been trying to change him. but just the same I am powerless over thinking about him. missing him. wishing him to come back to sobriety.