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It's funny, so many of us know we have to stop but postpone the big decision out of fear. We fear life will be a prison without alcohol to free us- free us from our inhibitions, our fears and the monotony of daily life. Basically we use it to free us from ourselves. But the reality is that alcohol is a dangerous tool and a fearful master. In the end we become its servant, just a slave to that bottle. The reality is that the freedom we seek in the bottle can only be truly found once we lay the bottle down and walk away. Only in sobriety is there true freedom.