Legend - not to sound callous, but you live in NY - there are multitudes of things you could do that don't involve alcohol. Heck, I live in a a small town in northern wisconsin and there are plenty of things to do even here not involving alcohol. Take a walk, go to the library, go to a sporting event, concert, art fair, church, the list is nearly endless.
I think the most important thing is that you need to make a choice to start getting better. It's always easier to find an excuse to NOT do something than to take the first step and actually do it.