Originally Posted by brattylush
I just wonder why I can't drink normal?? .
Probably because your of the alcoholic variety. We simply can't! One is to many and 100 not enough. Your situation is very close to mine. I got sick of it and this may sound insignificant, but I was sick of the demon controlling me, I had to take control and heal, I was 42 don't wait any longer. Find a means of support, your husband will probably leave you, you may even loose your job, you'll become even more isolated. I did the blame game for my drinking too, but if you look real hard inside, you know it's about you. Give sobriety a chance, it's not bad at all!