Originally Posted by
Leshar 
I know it seems really trivial, sorry for going on, but I don't usually reach out to anyone for help, and I'm soooo having a bad couple of days.
It's not trivial if it's turning your thoughts to drinking. Yesterday I came very close to driving to the liquor store because we were going to have a thunder storm. Yup, a thunderstorm! I remembered how much I loved to be high when those storms rolled through. It made me really angry that I couldn't be in a certain mental state to experience it properly.
I'm finding lots of little things that irritate me. These are the sorts of things that would always give me an excuse to drink. That being said, I think certain things have always irritated me. The only difference now is I'm not drinking. When I think back on it drinking never helped much with life's annoyances. Often times it made it worse because I would obsess over them. At least now I can look at whatever is bugging me with a rational mind even if I can't always solve it.
Hang in there and don't give up!