Thank you for sharing because I know all of us at some point feel unsure of our choices and the regrets we may ponder. None of us ever expected or chose to be in this situation. WE cannot control the actions of others only ourselves. You mentioned that he "cut down" but did not completely quit. That speaks volumes in that the potential is ALWAYS going to be there for the drinking to increase and the behaviors to begin again. You know the cycle-honeymoon phase to right back into heavy duty drinking. It is hard in that deep down you see that man he was when you married but he is no longer that man and cannot be unless he commits to complete sobriety and works on his issues that cause him to drink. It sounds as if you have done a fabulous job of taking care of yourself. I am just beginning the process and you are an inspiration to me.