I'm the biggest f**ked up person. On saturday I ruined my life because of ALCOHOL! I put my grandmother in the hospital because of me. I lost my girlfriend that I was with for 3 years and were about to get engaged. Alcohol makes me a really sick person. I can't imagine if my grandmother dosnt make I will never be able to forgive my self.
I had been an alcoholic for almost 2 years, now it has messed up everything for me. I wish I wasn't this selfish and shouldve quit it a while ago. I guess I'll have to learn my lesson this way. If you're out there and can't quit please listen to me!! u don't want this happening to u and feeling this ashamed and guilty over the nastiest creation on earth. I'm only 23 years old and I'm learning it the hard way. I wish i didn't have chose this path, its far most the biggest regret of my life. I don't how I became an alcoholic but now i admit that i am one and its time to go sober.
Like I said i'm only 23, got my bachelors degree in finance, working at the bank and blessed with a wonderful family that loves. Now because this past saturday my life has done a 360. So the story goes like this, My girlfriend had a fight with her mom over me it was because of me being drunk made this all cause it. She yelled and fought with her, supposibily her mom told me she was in the hospital, i checked every hospital in my region, no where to be found. I went to her house and asked her mom where is she, i had drank even more so i was already drunk, driving, and disrespecting and yelling at her mom. I dented her mom's car cuz she didn't want to tell me where she was. My cousins come to get me so i don't get arrested. I don't listen to them when they wanted my keys and take me out of there, they let me drive. As soon as we hit the expressway they notice im losing my focus on the car so they stop me after were off the express way. We get out of the car and they start punching me and hitting me. My grandma who's 80 years old comes to save me and tell em not to hit me and stuff, and there pushing n shoving me, unfortunately my grandma loses her balance and falls backwards on her head and is unconscious, we call 911 and shes taken to the hospital. I'm drunk, acting violent, try to commit suicide but my cousins stop me and save me, calls the cops and im baker acted. had to spend the night over to the hospital being detoxed.
My girlfriend is taken away to another city with her sister because thats where her sister lives. I spoke to her friend i found out she's in the hospital because she has not eaten and on a iv drip. Her mom hates me now, so does her sister i bet no doubt. I wonder if she hates me, im sure she don't half the story what occurred that night. I messed up everything, dearly i love this girl so much i can't even imagine losing her. I hope everything gets okay, and my grandma comes back to me like she was before. I'm really not worried about my relationship because i can't do anything anyways since her mom wants a restraining order on me. I hope we can solve it when the time is right. Alcohol has ****** up my life and I'm done with this nasty ****. Im going sober forever, i just have to be patient for everything to be ok again once again for me, i have to prove to the world what im about and this wasn't me because alochol had taken over my life.
I need all u guys support to get me through this withdrawals. 2 days sober lets make this happened!