Thank you everybody so much for your replies. I am ready to be sober, I have had enough of wasted time & crazy embarrassing moments. I am starting with this week. I usually don't drink during the week, the challenge comes on Fridays & Saturdays.
Cutting activities--the problem is that I don't do any activities. I just drink at home, & talk to my mom when drinking, or grandparents, or friends on the phone. After all it may not even be anxiety, because it's not like I am intimidated by my relatives...just bored....
Boredom. Yes. It is NOT fun to do anything sober, even not fun to have sex or talk to my bf, even to listen to him (& he is very smart & interesting) is NOT fun.