I hate to say it, but yes, there's a reason why he doesn't want you to go to Al-Anon meetings.....because he doesn't want you to start working on you and get better, because then you might realize that you don't want to be with him anymore. As you said, the family meeting made you feel stronger, but it also made you angry at him. Well, he's afraid if you get angry enough, or rather, HEALTHY enough, you'll realize that you can do SO MUCH BETTER than him and you'll walk away for good.