Hi Seemedrink; no-one here can give you any guarantees. If you can't cut down, then you're going to have to live as an alcoholic, or abstain completely.
I don't want to seem harsh, but if you won't see a doctor who can supervise and advise on cold turkey, what do you want from SR? Because all you will get from us is our own stories, and everyone and every circumstance is different.
Would you rather turn up at emergency after you've damaged yourself, or deal with the medical profession to stop it happening at all.
How much do you want this? Enough to overcome your dislike/fear of doctors? If not then medically you're on your own.