I just don't think AA or 12-step will work for me. I wish it would, so my meetings and support will have to be online. I am using AVRT and it encourages total and complete abstinence. I don't know why I reached for a bottle instead of coming online here when I felt the urge yesterday. I wish I did not make that mistake.
Riverfriend, hope your sobriety sticks this time, too. It is no fun feeling this bad.