It is very hard kooba. No denying that. Anvil is correct as usual. Hanging in there was tearing my heart and soul to pieces. Leaving started mending them. There is not a day that goes by I don't think of him. That is just who I am though, that won't change. I care, so sue me. lol. I am happy now though. I don't have anxiety attacks, I'm losing weight (we loved to cook and ate alot) I have morey money to spend on me, etc. IT GETS BETTER. If you love someone set them free........you know the rest. Take care