Hi Tam,
Most of the meetings I go to in NYC are speaker meetings. The first time I "qualified" was shortly after my mother's memorial service, and I did a boring drunkalog for most of the time and then when I got to the present, pretty much said, well, I don't have any hope. A real inspiration, that's me! I'm not exactly Miss AA-sunny-booster yet, but I think I can summon up a few more positive thoughts this time around.