Riky, we're all here for you. In your posts it is obvious what a kind and compassionate person you are. We need many, many more "yous" (hey, warned you I was from Philly
) on this planet. You will beat this and you will be free of it...don't ever be afraid to ask for help or use those numbers. Until then, we are all here to give back to you what you so freely give to us. Big hug and lots of supportive vibes coming your way.