Originally Posted by
intriptik 
I'm scared, I don't want to not drink..........Am I really just not gonna ever be able to drink? That bothers me. Thanks for the replies guys
I felt like this for a very long time. Now finally after 2 years of trying various approaches:SR, AA and struggling on my own to abstain, moderate, deny accept, deny, accept.. I am delighted to have 155 days sober!! I honestly see that there is no place for alcohol in my life and am so grateful that the battle in my head has stopped. I'm a non-drinker and though I never thought I would get there it is completely worth the wait. Keep going no matter how hard it is or how long it takes. Best of luck intriptik.