Dude, a fellow Oregonian!
Welcome to SR.....This place is a lifeline to learning about recovery, support from others when you're havin' a hard time, reading other stories that sound just like you.....
It's a tough journey sometimes, when we realize the drinking is out of control and we have to stop, but I'm glad to see you here taking the first brave steps to have a better life.
I wish I'd known about this site years ago, when I thought I could maybe just "cut down" or only drink on weekends, or whatever. I've learned that I'm one of those that can't just have a couple of drinks, it always turns into out of control pretty quickly.
I'm still under 2 months sober, and I'm still scared to say never, but I just get through the next 24 hours......and I feel sooo much better, clearer headed and not hungover everyday.
Good luck and kudos to making a new start!
~Heartfan