Well... took Ambien the last few nights, so I didn't tonight (don't want to get hooked).
Up late but I feel like I might fall asleep within the hour... that's about four hours earlier than last week pre-Ambien. So maybe if I use it really deliberately for a couple days by taking it really early I can push my schedule back. I am going to ask my counselor about it on Wednesday. To be honest, I don't really care if I become emotionally dependent on sleep aids... the obsession and isolation of insomnia is such a huge freaking part of my life (and has been since I was a child) that I'd gladly take a daily pill for the rest of my life if it would go away. But I'm really afraid of doing anything that negatively impacts the same parts of my brain that I damaged with alcohol.